tea time

it feels so quiet lately. or maybe it's just me that feels quiet. i'm easily lulled into silence by the music i've been listening to - i withdraw into it.

the trouble is, i don't know into what i'm withdrawing. i'm vaguely aware that i'm thinking, but about what, i'm unsure. it seems rather strange. that my subconscious seems to be more awake and alive than my conscious.

it seems rather paradoxical, don't you think? but then i think we're all paradoxes when we think about it. but individuals are complex creatures - if we weren't walking contradictions, life would be bland, simple.

and really, life isn't simple. there's always some new twist, some new turn that keeps one on one's toes. either that or makes them crawl into bed under the covers until all the craziness is over. but eventually, you've got to come out from under the covers - even if there is a ghost outside your door.

aloof ice princess

i always forget what wisdom there is in being an ice princess. it's all about self-preservation, you know?

(aren't i a ball of optimism?)

p.s. best game of text twist ever - i'm at 231 460 ... then i accidentally clicked on a url my friend sent me and i navigated from the page! DRATS

sons and lovers

by d.h. laurence (i hope i spelled that right ... not in the most sober state of mind right now)

anyway, it took me like a month and a half, but i finished my next book. this time, it was one on my list (my list being the same list as the 100 top modern novels). it was an interesting tale. one of a boy's life being both a son and a lover. i must confess, that the oedipal nature of the protaganist was a little icky.

i guess i just don't understand one having a relationship quite that close with one's parents ... a relationship which makes you want to eschew all other romantic endeavours. it's rather ... well, wrong, don't you think?

overall, the book wasn't bad. it was quite the look into one man's world and the women who surrounded him. a real exploration of what it means and takes to love another and the different types of love that exist. and most importantly, the hate that sometimes comes along with the love.

so in conclusion, the deep thought of the day (i'm unsure if i should share this ... it will really show you all what a geek i am):

you should always pay your taxes with a smile. i tried, but they said they wanted cash instead.

worrisome

is it just me, or does it worry you that:

1. fido is run by a bunch of dogs (according to the commercial at least)
2. the only human that seems to be part of the company takes his advice from the dogs.

at least that marketing campaign isn't as disturbing as the beef lovers commercial (i think it's harveys or burger king, i can't remember which), where a guy goes on a date with a cow ... and sleeps with a cow ...

it's either bestiality or some twisted form of cannibalism (eating your lover and such)

*shudders*

note to self

napping, while one of my favourite passtimes (pasttimes?) can be dangerous. very dangerous indeed!

6:30 p.m. i fall asleep ... i try to stay asleep until morning ... unfortunately, this does not happen

i awake at 9:45 p.m.

now i can't get back to sleep!

this is no good, no good at all!